A Bunch of Thoughts

A writer has to see bad movies to get inspired, the key is those bad movies have to have something good going for them - whether it’s a cool concept or design, good line of dialogue or maybe a cool title. It’s a delicate balance though, too many bad movies might taint the writers own projects.

I think I’m really self conscious. The question for me now is: do I face it, or see if I can succeed by going around it? I might have to take the risk and see if I can get a big following by being myself. I don’t like putting myself out there for people to judge. The worst case scenario is a video blows up for the wrong reason and I embarrass myself in front of potentially millions of people and I slink back into the background of things. I’d rather avoid that, but how do I know I won’t be a smash hit? What if this is how I get discovered? Am I setting myself up for failure just by wishing for such a thing? Am I an idiot? Am I funny? Do I even want to find out? We’ll see.

I’m putting together some ideas for short reels and stuff I can make. Only problem is, if they don’t blow up I might get embarrassed and decide to shut the whole plan down. How do I push through that? How do I even start?

I have a (very) short film I wrote that I might shoot in February, I have a few crew members who have signed up, but the financials are still in question. I have a feeling this film will either be the beginning of my addiction to film making, or completely ruin any chance of me trying to pursue it.

I’ve been writing the sequel to my novella, and it’s becoming something I could actually be proud of. Maybe I’ll blog about the process at some point. Not sure how I would do that without heavy spoilers.

I have to link my Instagram to this site so it gets some attention eventually.

Would it be acceptable to post playlists on a blog? Like list out the songs? Would people even bother? Maybe I just link my Spotify? I dunno.

What if I blogged everyday and made this platform something I actually take seriously? Would that be worth it? What if it was multiple times a day, like Zuckerberg in The Social Network? I’d much rather have coded my own website to post things on, but this works too I guess. Maybe that’s something I’ll do in the future. This is free, after all.

DEFINEME. Pronounced whichever way you’d like. I’d like to make that my film production tag. And my website. And my blog. And my merch store. It will be the conglomerate of all my creative works, it will be gloriously overwhelming. Maybe I’ll make that website once the business actually starts making money. Man, I didn’t realize how awesome that would be until I typed it out. My website with everything on it. Hell yeah.

It’s 3am and the wind is loud.